Life is but a dream ……

Come every 27th April, is my wedding anniversary.

The day was Thursday 27th April 1995. I looked dashing in my silky white baju melayu, just had my hair cut at the Indian barber shop in my hometown Sitiawan. And I also visited the dentist, just to have my teeth scaled and polished.

"Now there you go, you’ll look great with those smiles. Have a great wedding young man." Said the local dentist, Dr T K Liew. His clinic has been there for God knows how long. My mum used to say that even my grandfather used to visit the dental clinic.

Somebody then called me from JB. "Bro, make sure that you finish up the Permata Yang Hilang book that I gave you. Jangan gelojoh sangat."

"What? Oh ok. What do you mean gelojoh?"

Then another call, again from JB. "I’m so sorry, I can’t be at your wedding. Tiba-tiba pulak rasa tak sanggup. I’ll send my little brother instead to represent our family. Have a great time. My doa is with you, always with you."

"Mmm …" I was speechless.

It was the time. The Tuan Naib was there, my late father-in-law was there, together with my dad, mum and close families.

"Aku terima nikah …" It was accepted in one go. And from there onwards, my dear wife and I are legally married. True is the scripture written in the Protected Tablet in the Seventh Heaven.

Fast Forward to now: It seems like only yesterday, that fine young man and that beautiful lady got married. Now, after 13 years, everything seems not that long.

Well except, when looking at the 12 year old five foot four Ahwaz, the 10 plus year old Ateef with Nickelodeon accent, the 6 plus year old Akram who love the azan and nasyid, and the 5 plus year old Umayrah who making us (me especially) flat, I know that it has been 13 years since that akad nikah day.

In math, there’s this what we call law of the average:

Probability P is the absolute value of

( N/n - p )

where p is the probability of an event occurring and N is the number of times it occurs in n tries.

The probability of getting rich P(rich) will definitely occur to some of us once or twice at most, in N(number of times) after enough number of efforts n(efforts).

Anyway, the above is basically a really bad statistic theorem (I opted out Statistics in Add Math) and just a wishful thinking.

The other day I was with a couple of my high school buddies. Ahh, it has been such a long time. We talked freely, just like what we did back in the 80s when we were a bunch of boarding school boys.

After sometime, the three of us realised that we, unlike some of the people out there, are just pretty ordinary blokes, with no high profile lifestyles, top management positions, fast cars and more importantly with just a wife and kids. A bunch of Average Joes, and proud of the status quo.

You mere mortals might have not known it. It’s not in the papers. However, the fast and furious actions are on Astro Channel 953 until June 1st.

Mus, best gilak bro.

Hampir separuh kehidupan ini

berkisar tentang dirimu

lebih separuh perihal hati ini

adalah milikmu

Tiada apa

yang terlebih penting

(walau mungkin tak jelas kelihatan)

selain dari dirimu

Aku tak punya apa lagi

cuma sebuah kehidupan

dan sekeping hati lelaki

yang kesemuanya

dan keseluruhannya

telah kuserahkan padamu

In this mortal world, life can be fun. Or not at all. There’s ups and downs. Problems as well as issues. Some, you could crack your 3lbs and solve it there and then. Some, seems perpetual. Many, you just don’t bother.

Babe, you get what you deserved. Is that so? How on earth can we know of the potential outcome of a certain decision. Any decison that you make will fall into either these two categories:-

1. Good Decision

2. Bad Ones

However, either good or bad, its still subject to definition. How do you put the weightage. A good category of your decision might look pale in the view of others. And how bad is exactly bad?

Bla, bla, bla, yadda, yadda, yadda. In the end, maybe you are destined to get what you deserved. Atau berbanyak-banyak bersabar je la. Tuhan bersama orang yang sabar. Atau benarkah?

Bukan kita semua patut berusaha? You mean … try another decision? I don’t know. Or maybe I should start to negotiate.

"… you don’t get what you deserve, you get what you negotiate." Dr Karrass

Unlike in the Interview With The Vampire film, I ’sengaja menggatalkan diri’ to have an interview with my possible future employer. Nothing more, as the saying goes, than to ‘test’ the market. My market, that is.

This is not a face-to-face interview per se. The interviewer was sitting 9000 miles away with 6 hours time difference from yours truly, thanks to Skype tech. The sessions was quite good actually. It lasted almost an hour.

Anyway vampire Louis de Pointe du Lac a.k.a. Brad Pitt has decided not to tell his story anymore than this …

Ini satu soalan cepugangsa: Sila nyatakan resume anda?

Saya tidak bermaksud resume pengalaman kerja dan taraf pendidikan anda. Kalau sayalah, begini yang boleh saya nyatakan. Saya ini ialah seorang bapa kepada empat orang anak. Dua orang lelaki dan dua orang perempuan. Saya cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak membiarkan kerja resmi saya menjadi penghalang kepada tugas saya yang lebih besar iaitu menjadi parent yang hebat dan bertanggungjawab. Saya cuba bersama anak-anak di waktu pagi menghantar mereka ke sekolah dan bersama mereka di waktu makan malam. Mendengar cerita-cerita mereka. Melayan kerenah mereka. Saya adalah hero kepada anak-anak saya.

Saya juga menjadi sahabat karib isteri yang tercinta. Saya cuba segala yang terdaya untuk megisi segala janji-janji yang telah saya lafazkan dahulu. Saya akan berterus terang. Saya akan memohon doa kepada Tuhan pada waktu siang dan malam supaya akan dapat terus bertahan menghadapi segala ujian dan rintangan. Saya akan terus menjadi seorang anak yang baik kepada ibubapa saya. Saya juga akan berusaha untuk terus menjadi seorang yang bertanggungjawab di kalangan ahli keluarga, saudara mara dan masyarakat sekeliling saya. Saya akan terus menjadi sahabat dan rakan karib kepada teman-teman saya. Seperti kata orang sekarang, ‘saya akan lakukan yang terbaik’.

-GLAM April 08